i always thought i would die at a young age. which is ironic, considering how i used to live my life.
my name is kyle and i’m an alcoholic. it’s been exactly one year since my last drink. and i don’t miss it.
i miss it. sometimes.
looking back, it’s easy to forget why i did it. my inner self asking me why can’t i have just one? tempting me. it wouldn’t be that bad. but i know that’s just my addiction talking.
and i’m proud to say that after 365 days, it does get easier and those cravings come less often.
it’s the memories of why i stopped that linger longer.
like that time i went to frat party (when i was 27), didn’t eat dinner, drank like i was proving a point and ended up missing my flight home the next day (and work).
or the time that this happened after i drank at an all day tailgate for a concert i had no intention of seeing:
(note: everything turned out okay, don’t worry)
those are just two instances that weigh heavy on me any and every time i urge myself that only having one won’t hurt.
i’ve been thinking a lot about this day for the last 364 days and i can’t explain the feeling i’m feeling right now and it’s unlike anything i thought it would be like.
i look at that picture above and i feel sorry for that (guy) kyle, but at the same time, i can’t thank him enough.
this past year has been one of my most productive and most fulfilling:
i moved into a new apartment. i started dating a wonderful woman who supports me slash doesn’t put up with my whiny shit. we started a production company together (::ahem::) (http://www.peffercornproductions.com/)
i got to watch a short film i wrote, edited and acted in on the big screen with a real audience (not just friends and family) (although they were there as well). i also got to embarrass myself at a post-screening q&a!
i lost, like, 30 pounds (water weight)…and i started going to church again (not because somebody is making me, but because i legitimately want to go now)
sure, the year has had it’s ups and downs, but for every ‘up' i've been grateful & appreciative and learned something new about myself with every 'down.’
and even though my fear of dying young hasn’t quite diminished, at least i’ve eliminated one thing out of my life that could’ve made it happen had it continued…
now…who wants an o’doul’s?
(also: http://kyleorozovich.wix.com/reel )
Well, I think the title says it all.
It’s been more than half a year since I started this little “photo project/tumblr thing”and well, I don’t know. Short synopsis: finished my second roll of film in April. Just got it developed this past week. Even less pictures came out the second time. I haven’t learned anything except I’ve wasted my money.
Not that I’m fully giving up on the old school picture taking journey I started 7 months ago. I’m just done with my Holga. Not entirely in love with it or the shots its given me. Not loving the film either.
Anyway, who gives a shit. Here are the pictures:
Always a good sign when they have to print this along with your photos. Thanks Walgreens.
View from my bedroom late at night / early in the morning. Sure. Cool.
Not sure but I think this is the sunset from my bedroom as well. Not bad.
(this is the first time I’m looking at the pictures that were on my disk. they look kinda cool. the actual pictures not as much.)
I spoke too soon.
Sunset in Florida
Well, there you have it. We’ll see what the future brings.
Until then, enjoy my reposts of other people’s things
I couldn’t decide how I wanted it to be cropped.
Breaking Bad final season poster
It’s never too late or too early to be whoever you want to be
FOLLOW SAYING IMAGES FOR MORE GREAT PICTURES QUOTES
Amen F. Scott
I’ll make it brief and to the point:
Our film “Dream Girl” got accepted into the Garden State Film Festival this year! We couldn’t be more happy and honored and thrilled and nervous and ecstatic and other adjectives that don’t come to mind.
If you’re free on April 6th at 6:45pm, head on down to Asbury Park, NJ (hence the title) and come see our little 17 minute baby in real life.
All the information is on this link and so are some neat behind-the-scenes pictures too:
Enjoy and hope to see you there!
Back in 2006 when we shot the Woke Up New music video for the Mountain Goats, I wanted to also make something for my favorite song on the album, “Wild Sage.” So I shot John Darnielle singing the song in front of a black background, turned the footage black and white and high contrast, and printed out every frame of it on 8x10 paper. I then took these stacks of paper to Cape Cod and began to animate them as stills, shooting with my Canon 5D. It took much longer than I thought, and my vacation was over before the video was shot, so I took them back to NYC intending to finish the video there. I never did. So this is all there is.
The printouts somehow ended up in my cousin Nathan’s possession, and seven years later he found them stacked in a box and asked me what these thousands of bizarre photos of John Darnielle’s face were for.
And I said “oh yeah, that thing. I should upload it to Vimeo or something.”
Just a genius (unfinished) idea.